Priorites

I feel confused.
My "friend" dropped out of school today. I don't understand. He was the one being harassed. Shouldn't the bullies be kicked out?
Notice, I put the word "friend" in quotes. He's one of those people who pretends to be your best friend for a few weeks and then realizes that there's nothing else he can get out of you, so he leaves.
Oh well, I guess that's just what I get for being stupid.
But he's gone now, so in a way, that's one less thing for me to worry about. I wish I didn't miss him.

So much has changed. I found my Batman. There's quite an age difference, but I don't care. I need someone. And now I have someone.
I feel a neverending ache of guilt. Why do I yearn for material love when God is there? Why have I shoved him away, into some dark corner of my heart? I need him. Will a relationship with someone else make that need weaker? Why can't I set good priorities? Why am I so terrible?
Every text message from Batman brings me a sense of joy. Sigh...why can't I feel that way about God.....

Dear God,
I know I am a hypocrite. I know my relationship with you isn't where it should be. Please help me to focus on you, and to want you the most. I'm so distracted by the world, that I forget. Don't let me forget.

In Jesus' name,
Amen