Friends

Growing up I never had a lot of friends. I was the tall, lanky, shy kid that people tripped walking by or got their head dunked in the water fountain by the next person in line. I didn't think that I had any friends at all and up until recently that's how I felt. But as I looked back on my childhood I realized that I had lots of friends. My cousins from Show Low have been great friends that I have known since birth. I have a friend that I've been hanging out with since...forever. We've been chilling and playing videogames since way back when. In the sixth grade I had a best friend that was always there for me and made me so happy.I think she was a bad influence on me, but we had fun and she helped me survive my sixth grade year. I also have a friend that I've known since pre-k. We are always arguing with eachother like an old couple, but I realize that that's because he is one of my best friends. It's kind of backwards, but whatever. I also have friends from band that I hang out with sometimes. They're like my family. And now, I have two friends that saved my life. I was considering suicide and they saved me. I have had so many friends and I have never acknowledged that and it makes me feel ashamed of myself. I always focused on the bad, and never even realized there was good. I always took it that the way those jerks thought of me was how everyone thought of me, and I just feel like I've wasted a good portion of my life feeling alone and worthless and friendless, even though I've always had a group of friends right there with me. Sigh...I feel like a stupid-head. I have friends. And they make my life worth living. Thankyou.