Life presently

Time is flying by. Last year, each day dragged on slowly. But now, it's all I can do to keep the days here in one place. Sometimes I want to take the day and pin it down to the ground to keep it from flying away, so I have time to blink my eyes before it's gone. Is it because I've lost a friend, or because I've gained so many more?
I feel comfortable with who I am. Playing volleyball, I can fit in. I can do whatever they can do. And they're nice to me. Really nice to me. At school, I can be myself. My sister isn't here to determine who I am. I determine who I am. I determine who I want to be. Her opinion doesn't matter when she is 100 miles away.
There are a lot of things that tear down on me, but those things don't seem to matter as much anymore. One of those things is the fact that I don't pray or read my Bible as much as I used to. It's awful. I know I need to, but it's like I never have time. It's very frustrating. Another, arguments and drama have broken a friendship that I once deemed to be my "life-line". But it's gone now, like dust in the wind. I haven't seen him in one and a half weeks, not to mention that he thinks I'm a fake. I miss him, but somehow I'm fine. Maybe because I know he won't read this, and because he doesn't miss me back. There's only one person he misses.
Band is hard. With this new director, I've realized how much I need to learn. Apparently, my tone is horrible. I memorize all my music to perfection. But it doesn't matter to her, because it sounds terrible. Because I'm terrible. It's a small comfort to know that I am way ahead of everyone else (That gives you a good description of our band).
Overall, everything is fine. Emotions in check. Attitude in check. Grades....not so in check. I'll have to work on that one haha....